Apr 20, 2006

Like We Never Loved At All

Scribbled by Perky |

There's something about country music that always seem to strike a note deep in my heart. When I first listened to "Like We Never Loved At All" by country music's reigning king and queen, Tim McGraw and Faith Hill, I liked it simply because of their pitch-perfect performance and not to mention their on stage chemistry (hey, there are celebrity couples that just don't have onscreen/onstage chemistry... take Nicole Kidman and Tom Cruise in Eyes Wide Shut... but we all know how that one ended).

It wasn't until last night that I really listened to the song and realized that this song was exactly how I felt towards THE exboyfriend. Ok, I'm sure all of you have that one ex who somewhat still resides in the corner of your heart. Now, the ex that I'm referring to is the only one that ended on a bad note. It's quite a sad ending, really, to a couple who were once high school sweethearts.

By the time I finished listening to that song, it felt like my past with him being sung out to me. Every word represented how I had felt towards the said person about a year ago. He had stopped talking to me and treated me like as if I never existed at all. As we still have mutual friends (current beau included) and mutual interests (martial arts), meeting each other was inevitable. So there we were, stuck in the same room, completely ignoring each other. I had wanted so much to ask him how he was doing but when he walked straight pass me without so much as looking at me, I knew that this was one friendship can never be repaired. (Ok, I can hear you girls going, "but he cheated on you!" But I've always believed that friendship can survive after the relationship. Wait, let me rephrase: Friendship can survive after relationship provided that is something the both of you want. But that's a whole different story ok.)

The chorus of this song really spoke the words that went through my mind at that point of time. I had often wondered if the silent treatment from him was his way of dealing with the whole thing, with me. He's got some weird ways of dealing with things. I remember when his dog died. That German Shepard has been his best friend since he was small. One day, he called me up and for some strange reason he picked up a fight with me over the phone. So after a long heated argument, before he hung up the phone, he said to me,"I just wanted to tell you that Nike Nike died". He expressed his grief by pissing others off. Yeah, let's hear it now: "What the fuck?" Anyway, that's beside the point.

Well, I heard he's doing well now (he's finally got his own tattoo studio and he's travelling quite a bit, making a name for himself) and hey, I ain't doing too bad myself these days. If he hadn't stopped being my friend, my partner and I would never had hooked up 'cause then that would be wrong, and I would never have found 'the one'(for those of you out of the loop, my ex and my current partner are very good friends. Now you see the picture?). Anyways, I don't wanna dwelve into that old story anymore than I already have. So I'm leaving you with the lyrics and video of "Like We Never Loved At All"

You never looked so good
as you did last night,
underneath the city lights,
there walking with your friend,
laughing at the moon.
I swear you looked right through me.
But I’m still living with your goodbye,
and you’re just going on with your life.

How can you just walk on by
without one tear in your eye?
Don’t you have the slightest feelings left for me?
Maybe that’s just your way
of dealing with the pain,
forgetting everything
between our rise and fall
like we never loved at all.

You, I hear you’re doing fine
Seems like you’re doing well
as far as I can tell.
Time is leaving us behind,
(time – leaving us behind)
another week has passed
and still I haven’t laughed yet.
So tell me, what your secret is
(I wanna know, I wanna know, I wanna know)
to letting go, letting go like you did,
like you did.

How can you just walk on by
without one tear in your eye?
Don’t you have the slightest feelings left for me?
Maybe that’s just your way
of dealing with the pain,
forgetting everything
between our rise and fall
like we never loved at all.

Did you forget the magic?
Did you forget the passion?
Oh, and did you ever miss me,
and long to kiss me?
Oh baby, baby.

Maybe that’s just your way
of dealing with the pain,
forgetting everything
between our rise and fall
like we never loved at all.



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9 Your say:

Himu said...

I wish I never meet my one x. I wish I never hear from her. I wish very soon I have heard time remembering her name. I wish soon she goes in oblivion where there is no mention of me anywhere. I hate her! yups. Sorry Perky! Your post reminded me of someone.. :p

Never let "the one" leave u ok lah

Anonymous said...

You're absolutely right about that 'one ex' that still manages to evoke certain feelings, be it hate or the kenangan manis kau dan aku kind of ex...
It is quite sad lor when you can't be friends with that person who were once important in your life. But sometimes it's like that lah... some exs brings out the worst in you (the way mine did).

I absolutely love the way you think. Even through the bad stuff, you still can see the positive side of things. I like how you change and connect the negative into something positive. If he hadn't stopped being my friend, my partner and I would never had hooked up... Do you not have a single evil bone in you, lydia sylvester?

-vonne-

Himu said...

Yeah lydia. How come you have so much "optimistic" way of thinking in you huh? I wish I had some of your optimistic views sometimes ;)

Good luck with ur life

Perky said...

Vonne:
Yes I do have an evil bone in me, damn it! I'm evil and all evil things are spawned from me. *tilts head back and throws out a long evil laugh* muahaha!!

Yeah I do know which ex you're talking about. I do pity you. But I don't know.. perhaps you could learn to relax a bit around her. You know... don't try to get so worked up. So what if she calls you a lesbo traitor? Heck i didn't konw that lesbianism was a religion ;)

You're happy and you've moved on. She's the one who's carrying all that baggage and bitterness around. So that's her prob. Not yours darling =)

Himu:
A lot of my friends say that about me. I don't know... I guess it's better to channel all that negative stuff into something positive... you know, something I could turn into to better myself. I suppose I can be a lil bit too positive sometimes that it does get annoying. hehehe.

the one that made you suffocate said...

I honestly thought you were talking about me. damn am i not worthy of mention on your blog, honeybear? ;)

Perky said...

Sang perimas:
Hey hey... you are so not worth my time k ;) lol. hehehe i haven't been called honeybear in a long time.
take care tiger =)

apples said...

Different people deal with different things in different ways. They can react in ways we couldn't understand and it's their right to do so. We should do our best to understand them and see it from their point of view. That is, as long as they understand they should do the same for you.

- that's about the dog and why he picked a fight.

About the ignoring you and having cheated on you and whatever else I've missed out on - as you said, we all have that one we can't quite let go of and we're being completely irrational about it (and we know it) because in a way it doesn't really matter what he did back then; you still feel a certain way about him and maybe you always will.

- he does sound like a dick though...

Himu said...

woah? NO updates Perky? :P:P

Perky said...

Apples:
Yeah I know why he reacted the way he did when his dog died. But still, you know... just that it was weird and hard for me to accept how he is sometimes.

p/s: Yeah, he is a dick.. if only i saw him for what he really is earlier... Even so, you're right about how we still feel a certain way about a certain someone. Damn life can be such a bitch sometimes! lol.

Himu:
Sorry mate. I've been so busy lately I simply didn't have the time to update my blog. But tomorrow's a public holiday.. so hopefully i get some alone time to write k ;)